Noach: the new world

Noach is so accessible that it is taught to second graders. It is so deep that it can never  be understood completely.  It is the story that introduces the mystery of gendered  reproduction, the Jewish day school equivalent of "the birds and the bees." It has the great reassurance: that Gd  will never again flood the world;  and it has the rainbow, the resolution of visible light into its component colors, as the  sign of that covenant. (GD did not promise that there would never be a holocaust.) It contains the curse of slavery and the  skyscraper of Babel: the consequences of these stories are still evolving . 

Noah contains stories that relate to survival. Every  story  is told by the survivors. 

Every audience is an audience of survivors, the descendants of survivors.  Noach (and his kin) are the sole survivors of the deluge. They will restart humanity, They will generate some combination of the old tradition and the new order.

My parents were such survivors. Their world was destroyed, all of their kindred were murdered, the culture was killed, the land of Poland evicted them. They were replanted in America and spawned children to synthesize a new way of life. Their old ways were important to them. They are important to me. I hope that my ways are important to my children.

Am I preserving the most precious parts? Are the innovations constructive? The evolution of our culture is ongoing, always confronting a changing set of challenges. The Judaism that I have is an evolved thing. What I leave behind will be a distortion of what I received, what I rejected, what I accepted. 

The  the antediluvian world destroyed itself. The text uses  a passive (Nifal)voice: נִשְׁחָתָה : it had become destroyed. The destruction had happened  because of a lack controlling action.. The absence of divine intervention, the laissez-faire approach, had led to terminal degradation. The  solution was a hard reset, control-alt-delete.

Recent warnings about artificial intelligence generate debate about the need to control this juggernaut. Artificial intelligence has the potential to heal sickness, feed the hungry, enhance justice. As it is currently constituted, AI has cliche values, the edited aggregate what what people have said. The disconnect between what people think, feel and say makes the basis of these values a half truth. Multiply this by the limitations of human knowledge and you have a mess. Add the greed vector and the more powerful AI becomes,  the greater the danger of another נִשְׁחָתָה (nishchatha), a corruption brought on by passivity.  But these words are already cliche.

The people (and animals) rescued in the ark build a new world. 

וּמֵאֵ֖לֶּה נָֽפְצָ֥ה כׇל־הָאָֽרֶץ׃

and from these the whole world branched out. 

The next verse is 

וַיָּ֥חֶל נֹ֖חַ אִ֣ישׁ הָֽאֲדָמָ֑ה וַיִּטַּ֖ע כָּֽרֶם׃ 

Noah, the tiller of the soil,  first planted a vineyard.

The introductory word: Vayichal seems superfluous and it is ambiguous. It could mean that Noah "was the first" ( ibn Ezra) but Rashi says

ויחל. עָשָׂה עַצְמוֹ חֻלִּין, (ב"ר):

He made himself profane, ordinary.

Rashi's interpretation makes the verse read: 

Noah, the man of the earth, profaned himself and planted a vineyard

A fundamental meaning of the root chal means something that just happens by itself. That is the nature of fermentation, the process that adds alcohol, the intoxicant to fruit of the vine. It is a change, an improvement(?), that happens if you merely wait. This is the origin of the technology that gives us bread and wine. Another mixed blessing.

Noah and the vineyard is a partial re-enactment of eating from the Tree of Knowledge. The wine distorted Noah's perception, just as the knowledge fruit had done to Adam and Eve. Eating from the tree of knowledge led to an awareness of nakedness and the need to clothe. Noah's wine  led to his nakedness.  When he sobered he was embarrassed. Noah's analysis of the behavior of his sons led to enslaving one to the others, an approval of aristocracy and hierarchy. 

The Tower of Babel is a synthesis of technology and hierarchy. There may have been an element of mistrust in GD's promise not to bring another flood in the motivation for the Tower. Rashi quotes Bereshith Rabba  

וּדְבָרִים אֲחָדִים – אָמְרוּ אַחַת לְאֶלֶף ותרנ"ו שָׁנִים הָרָקִיעַ מִתְמוֹטֵט כְּשֵׁם שֶׁעָשָׂה בִּימֵי הַמַּבּוּל, בֹּאוּ וְנַעֲשֶׂה לוֹ סְמִיכוֹת (ב"ר):

they spoke דברים חדים “sharp” words; they said, “Once in every one thousand six hundred and fifty six years (the period that elapsed from the Creation to the Flood) there is a heaven-shaking, just as there was in the days of the Flood. Come. then, and let us make supports for it” (Genesis Rabbah 38:6).  

This  casts the Tower as the product of "science" overcoming faith. The simplest (agnostic/atheistic) explanation for the flood was as a periodic event over a long interval, like Haley's comet. 

The tower of Babel was  an attempt to guide history. It was built to keep the people together, to discourage the dispersion , to keep the current power structure in place. It was built so that all would continue to speak the same language. I find it tempting to read the theme of domination into this chapter. The tower of Babel could be seen as a watchtower, a way to make sure that no one strays from the official gaze of the government. 

The story of the Tower of Babel begins with the first mention of bricks. Bricks are the first interchangeable part, the first industrial product. In the Mandelkern  concordance, the only other use of the word is connected to the slavery in Egypt.

The production of bricks implies a division of labor. Some people produce bricks, others place them and build, perhaps others assure the proper placement. My sense is that the brick-maker was the least prestigious group. In the society of the times, making bricks might be the work of slaves. Bricks reappear when the Hebrews are enslaved by the Egyptians. There, the production of bricks is clearly the work of the subjugated. It was certainly not the work of winners.

When Gd sees the assembly line, Gd exclaims:

 הֵ֣ן עַ֤ם אֶחָד֙ וְשָׂפָ֤ה אַחַת֙ לְכֻלָּ֔ם וְזֶ֖ה הַחִלָּ֣ם לַעֲשׂ֑וֹת

 If, as one people with one language for all, this is how they have begun to act. 

We have seen this in our time as the internet has deteriorated into a tool of enslavement. The internet started as a universal language without apparent hierarchy. Now, it is an instrument for the subjugation of the people by the powerful few.

It is interesting to note that large language models (a large part of what we call AI) are language agnostic. They break words into tokens, strings of symbols and calculates the next string of symbols. It is a return to "one language"

Are the early errors recursive? Is there a force that makes every generation repeat the hubris of the past? AI does not lead to path path out of the cliche. Think out of the box, but be careful. 

 

 Bereshith: Curiosity

I remember how excited I was, as a second grader at Yeshiva Rabbi Chaim Berlin to start learning Chumash ( the five books of Moses). The first letter, ב the Beth , was large. It was clear that one began at this parenthesis shaped thing that blocked off everything before it. [Hebrew is read right to left]. At that time, I just wanted to go forward. Struggling to read the words was enough to keep me from trying to look behind the beth. 

Rabbi Yona said in the name of Rabbi Levi: Why was the world created with the letter beit? It is because just as the beit is closed on all [three of] its sides but open in its front, so, you do not have permission to ask: What is below, what is above, what was before, and what is after, but only from the day when the world created and onward. 

Limits to inquiry is a lesson in the stories in Bereshith. The most prominent of these is the eating from the tree of daath. 

I do not think that calling daath knowledge conveys enough of its meaning. I think about it in terms of the letters.  The name of the first letter, Daleth ד,  means a door. (That immediately invokes the Monte Hall problem,  a modern issue.)  . The second letter, ayin ע, means eye.   Daath is getting to see what is behind the door. It is a revelation, the resolution of a mystery.  It is the satisfaction of curiosity.  

Rashi quotes Bereshith Rabba

וְאַעַ"פִּ שֶׁנִּתְּנָה בוֹ דֵּעָה לִקְרוֹת לוֹ שֵׁמוֹת, לֹא נִתַּן בּוֹ יֵצֶר הָרָע עַד אָכְלוֹ מִן הָעֵץ וְנִכְנַס בּוֹ יֵצֶר הָרָע וְיָדַע מַה בֵּין טוֹב לָרָע (בראשית רבה):

 Although he (Adam) had been endowed with knowledge to give names to all creatures, yet the evil inclination did not become an active principle in him until he had eaten of the tree, when it entered into him and he became aware of the difference between good and evil

The Rabbinic understanding of the downfall that followed the eating of the fruit of daath is that it allowed the entry of the yetzer hara, the evil inclination into human consiousness.  But didn't the act of taking the forbidden fruit, stealing it from Gd, violating the instruction to guard the garden mean that an evil inclination already existed? And what motivated the snake to entice the woman to sin? Perhaps it is a matter of degree. Perhaps it is a matter of detail.

The decision to ingest this mind altering drug , despite the warning that it is a lethal poison, determines the trajectory of humanity and ( according to the story) the world that was created for it. In our world, partaking of the forbidden fruit of mind altering potions is familiar. It is hard to know haw this has impacted human history. Did  Freud's use of cocaine influence the development of psychoanalysis? Did Job's use of LSD  help create the iphone?  Certainly many drug influenced behaviors lead to later regrets, and sometimes, like the expulsion from Eden, there is no possibility of return. 

Was Eve curious?There is no word for “curious” in the Torah ( nor in the rest of Tanach). The ancients did not have time for curiosity; they were too busy getting food, building shelter and weaving clothes. They often had to explore new places and try new things, but there was probably a greater appreciation for the dangers involved in the unknown.   

 The value of curiosity has changed over time. In the contemporary world, it is a esteemed quality, encouraged  by pedagogues. The ancients were more ambivalent. The Greek story of Pandora’s box emphasizes the danger. In the Jewish world, a controlled curiosity that does not  wander into dangerous orchards is encouraged.  Rambam writes that Abraham found the unity of Gd through curiosity. (Mishneh Torah (Hilchot Avodat Kochavim 1:3)) [the reasoning does not [yet] conform to the contemporary scientific view]. Moses may have demonstrated his fitness to lead the Israelites out of Egypt by turning to a burning bush. Other episodes of exploration do not turn out well. The mission of the spies sent to the land results in 40 year of exile in the wilderness. The spies gave an accurate report... and added their own dayoth, opinions.  Note that they brought back the fruit of the land, a re-enactment of the exile from Eden. 

Adam also ate from the fruit. Perhaps he was not curious enough.

We live in a  time when a new understanding of the warning  that  Gd gave Adam  emerges. 

The Divine warning: 

וּמֵעֵ֗ץ הַדַּ֙עַת֙ ט֣וֹב וָרָ֔ע לֹ֥א תֹאכַ֖ל מִמֶּ֑נּוּ כִּ֗י בְּי֛וֹם אֲכׇלְךָ֥ מִמֶּ֖נּוּ מ֥וֹת תָּמֽוּת׃ 

but as for the tree of knowledge of good and bad, you must not eat of it; for as soon as you eat of it, you shall die.”

Perhaps, the curse of death is much delayed and applies to all humanity, the descendants of Adam and Eve. The (successful) search for knowledge has led to a world of comforts and possibilities. I can fly, in a jet, anywhere in the world in less than a day. Humans have visited the moon. I wake up in pleasantly warm house year round, buy food and clothing  for a small percentage of my wealth, and play much of the day. I can ( safely) indulge my curiosity. 

Discovery, a product of the mind alteration from the Tree of Daath, has led to the ability to destroy the world, and aspect of "being like Gd." Nuclear (and perhaps biologic) weapons have made total destruction of human life on earth a real possibility. Artificial intelligence, a disembodiment of knowledge (without daath?) may acuate that process. 

Knowledge can kill. Curiosity can lead to sin. Respect the boundaries; identify them well. 

 

Hoshana Raba: Magic Words

 Hoshana Raba: Magic Words

I think that Hoshana Raba is the festival of magic words. Hoshana, Mivasser

 

Hoshana Raba is the last intermediate day of Sukkoth.  Sukkoth (like Passover 6 months earlier /later) is a week long holiday with full holy days ( days that have restrictions on “work”  and have special prayer service that usurps the usual daily service) and "intermediate” days ( days when we eat in the sukkah, make some additions to the usual prayers, but do not significantly limit activities.)  The prayer service for Hoshana Raba incorporates more of the holy day material, but remains everyday in the essentials. The Hoshana Raba service includes the most extensive hoshana service. 

Every day of Sukkoth ( except the Saturday), the men of the Orthodox congregation take up the four species ( lulav, ethrog, hadassim and aravoth) and march around the synagogue  reciting responsively an alphabetical list  of two or three word phrases with the chorus of hoshea na after each phrase. The themes of these marches are appeals to Gd’s mercy.  On Hoshana Raba, we march around seven times, reciting a full alphabetical list for each circuit and add a few more complex (and darker) lists (hosannas). After the march, there are more alphabetical and reverse alphabetical poems with refrains that are related to the word hoshana. Finally there is a plea for salvation with the refrain “mivasser.,” announcement. This refrain is a bit incongruous. 

The day after Hoshana Rabba is Shemini Atzereth, the eighth day of (holy) assembly. It is a holiday that follows Sukkoth.  The highlight of Shemini Atzereth is the announcement of a transition in the daily prayer to now include a recognition of rain.  We are entering the rainy season (in the land of Israel) and prosperity depends on adequate rain.  Drought means disaster. Wasser  (pronounced vasser) is the Yiddish (and German) word for water.  The mem, (מ) in mivasser can mean  “from” (its usage in Hebrew that is sometimes used in Yiddish)  or, its pronunciation as  may  can, by itself mean water (in Hebrew).  The Hoshana Raba service ends  with a call for water, a prayer for rain. 

The word Hoshana, a contraction of hashea na, means “save us, please.” Hoshana was prominent in the Coen Brothers’ movie A Serious Man. A memorable scene describes finding the word  hoshana (הוֹשִׁיעָה־נָּא) (goys teeth)  inscribed  ( in Hebrew) inside a man’s teeth.  The scene is funny because it touches on the remoteness of the ancient beliefs. For me, balancing  between a lost worldview, magic, and meaninglessness is an intense struggle. I think that there are additional axes beyond these three.. 

Hoshana Raba and its marches, poetry and incantations, comes at the end of  the season of Selichoth.  Ashkenazic Orthodox Jews begin waking early  to recite selichoth, prayers of repentance, before the morning service, a week before Rosh Hashana ( the New Year day of judgement).  Most of these  selichoth were written before the 11th Century in a poetical Hebrew dialect  and are  very hard to understand. They are often alphabetical. They have that magical aspect, so understanding the words is not the important part.  Maybe it never is. 

Magic from words is a common experience. Poetry is magical words. The plea of the attorney can free the accused.  The jargon of medicine can give the illusion of understanding and hope.

AI large language models create pseudo-human responses from pieces of words ( tokens).  A few words from the President can destroy the world in a nuclear war. 

Words are magic. Watch a one year old learn to use them and you will see.

 The Succah: Shelter

The Rolling Stones sang: 

Ooh, a storm is threatening

My very life today

If I don't get some shelter

Ooh yeah, I'm gonna fade away

War, children

It's just a shot away 

This song was a mixture of (Vietnam) war protest, free floating anger-energy and eroticism.  The Protest Movement would:

1. Save your life

2. Stop the killing of innocents

3. Help you find love. 

The title of the song evokes the meaning of Succoth. The Succah is the “shelter” this song refers to. It is a shack with a (purposely) almost ineffective roof. It is the best you can do, and it may not be enough. 

On Yom Kippur, the book of Jonah is chanted. Jonah can be seen as a story of seeking shelter. Jonah  is told to go to Nineveh and reveal their impending destruction. Nineveh needs to “get some shelter” from the wrath of Gd.

Jonah tries to run to Tarshish. According to Rashi, Jonah thinks that Tarshish is outside the broadcast zone of prophecy. Jonah feels that he needs protection from Gd’s instructions.  (The apostle Paul’s origin from Tarsus is either ironic or a purposeful echo of Jonah’s story [more likely].)  Gd creates a storm that will sink the Tarsus bound ship. There is no physical protection, only prayer and, ultimately  a human sacrifice (sic!), will calm the sea. Jonah (the Jew who caused the problem) is thrown overboard. 

Jonah is given a miraculous shelter. Gd created a  ‘fish” that surrounded  and protected him. In his solitude, he comes around to the desirability and need to fulfill the Divine will. Jonah goes to Nineveh, predicts  that city’s  destruction and brings the city to sincere repentance. Nineveh is sheltered  by love and it works. 

Jonah makes a succah. He makes a shelter for a brief visit to see what will happen. When chanted, a telisha gadolah, a special chant, announces the making of the Sukkah.

וַיַּ֩עַשׂ֩ ל֨וֹ שָׁ֜ם סֻכָּ֗ה וַיֵּ֤שֶׁב תַּחְתֶּ֙יהָ֙ בַּצֵּ֔ל עַ֚ד אֲשֶׁ֣ר יִרְאֶ֔ה מַה־יִּהְיֶ֖ה בָּעִֽיר׃

He made a booth there and sat under it in the shade, until he should see what happened to the city.

He had told Nineveh that it would be destroyed in 40 days; he knows that their repentance and Gd's mercy will not let that happen. Gd teaches Jonah a lesson in mercy.

 

Gd ( chanted with the flourish of a Telisha kattana) made a “kikayon”, a tree that provided excellent shade; and Jonah enjoyed it very much. The kikayon, the Divine plant of shelter was destroyed overnight by a worm. Then Gd caused a blistering sun, and Jonah was annoyed, The succah that Jonah had made to block out the sun was inadequate to the job.  The kikayon had worked much better, but it was gone. Human produced shelter could not protect against Divine manipulations of nature. The construction provides shelter as long as nature remains within parameters and probable behavior is not guaranteed. 

The Shulchan Aruch, the 16th century codification of law and custom, generally does not present any background or motivational information.  Succkoth is the exception. Section 625 of Orach Chaim begins: 

בסוכות תשבו שבעת ימים וגו' כי בסוכות הושבתי את בני ישראל הם ענני כבוד שהקיפם בהם לבל יכם שרב ושמש:

On Succot we shall dwell for 7 days etc. Because on Succot I protected the children of Israel. These refer to the clouds of glory who protected them from all the intense heat and the sun of the desert.

The Kaf HaChayim, an early 20th Century commentator on the Shulchan Aruch says the commandment of Sukkah explicitly demands cognitive awareness. The verse states: "In order that your generations shall know (lema'an yede'u) that I caused the Children of Israel to dwell in booths when I brought them out of Egypt" (Leviticus 23:43). 

Sitting in the succah raises our awareness of what is means to live in a tent instead of a home. It is usually possible, but uncomfortable. This collective move outside  the house reminds us of how the Israelites moved out of Egypt. We can feel the spirit of mutual aid that comes from  shared hardship; how giving is possible even when there is not really enough to share. Why Jonah should have had more sympathy for the 120,000 people of Nineveh and its beasts. 

Succoth has special meaning for me.  It when Karen ( my spouse) and I fell in love. We  were living in apartments in D.C and would visit public Succoth in the city. She is my kikayon, my divine shelter.  Our  brick or wood or steel homes will only work if nature cooperates, True shelter comes from the clouds of glory, the Divine grace that sends love.  

Shabbath Tchuvah: Haazinu

Shabbath Tchuvah: Haazinu

 Several texts are impacting me this year. There is the usual parsha, the last chapter of the Torah that is read publicly, Haazinu.  The  Daf Yomi ( the world wide Talmud  page of the day) ends Tractate Chulin  on this Shabbath. We are looking forward to reading the Book of Jonah on Yom Kippu. and we are winding down Selichoth,  the prayers of Supplication that are begun a week before Rosh Hashanah, many of which are incorporated into the Yom Kippur service.

Haazinu, this week’s parsha. Is the song/poem that Moses taught the Israelites just before his death. The previous chapter ends with Moshe instructing that the people be assembled to listen to this poem 

הַקְהִ֧ילוּ אֵלַ֛י אֶת־כׇּל־זִקְנֵ֥י שִׁבְטֵיכֶ֖ם וְשֹׁטְרֵיכֶ֑ם וַאֲדַבְּרָ֣ה בְאׇזְנֵיהֶ֗ם אֵ֚ת הַדְּבָרִ֣ים הָאֵ֔לֶּה וְאָעִ֣ידָה בָּ֔ם אֶת־הַשָּׁמַ֖יִם וְאֶת־הָאָֽרֶץ׃

Gather to me all the elders of your tribes and your officials, that I may speak all these words to them and that I may call heaven and earth to witness against them.

כִּ֣י יָדַ֗עְתִּי אַחֲרֵ֤י מוֹתִי֙ כִּֽי־הַשְׁחֵ֣ת תַּשְׁחִת֔וּן וְסַרְתֶּ֣ם מִן־הַדֶּ֔רֶךְ אֲשֶׁ֥ר צִוִּ֖יתִי אֶתְכֶ֑ם וְקָרָ֨את אֶתְכֶ֤ם הָרָעָה֙ בְּאַחֲרִ֣ית הַיָּמִ֔ים כִּֽי־תַעֲשׂ֤וּ אֶת־הָרַע֙ בְּעֵינֵ֣י יְהֹוָ֔ה לְהַכְעִיס֖וֹ בְּמַעֲשֵׂ֥ה יְדֵיכֶֽם׃

For I know that, when I am dead, you will act wickedly and turn away from the path that I enjoined upon you, and that in time to come misfortune will befall you for having done evil in GD’s sight and provoking anger by your deeds.

The motivation for the poem is that it will explain the  misfortune [that] will befall you  as a consequence of having done evil in GD’s sight and provoking anger. The poem helps maintain faith in the face of severe punishment. The poem tells us that the misfortunes are justified by the evil behavior that caused them. It allows for Gd to be thought of as just. it does not rule out the possibility of Mercy, but the transgressions are so severe that the punishment is deserved. This context is needed to maintain faith (and the behaviors that follow from it)  after misfortunes like the holocaust. The problem presented by this worldview is that people can never be good enough. The prophecy of Moses predicts their sin.

 This year, when the titans of artificial intelligence are reporting the danger of their product, the poem becomes more important.  Large language models primarily predict the next set of symbols, the next word.  They have a huge collection of word sequences from which to choose the most likely next word. They are perpetuating cliche. Poetry is the enemy of cliche. The words answer to rhythm, rhyme, sound. These are properties that can be imitated by large language models. But poetry also requires elements of uniqueness, unexpected combinations.   Solomon Shereshevsky   was a man who was said to have  remembered everything. He was a living large language model. He hated poetry. He could memorize it but he could not understand it. Personally, I am never sure I understand the poem. Haazinu is a poem that is blocked from comprehension; it is the incomprehensible way of Gd. 

As we say selichoth this season  I am inundated with poetry that is difficult to understand. There is an easy problem and a hard problem. The easy problem  is that some of the words are contracted or referential to Torah and the prophets.  My highly  annotated editions of Selichot  allow me to decode the contractions and look up references. The hard problem is understanding the message which includes a significant component of vengeance against our enemies and self blame for the misfortunes. Those lead to a choice. Should I understand the poems of selichot to be the transmitters of a  tradition that I am  now having trouble with  because the ambient culture has made some of these concepts objectionable?  Should I try to understand vengeance in a different way?  Should I adapt myself to the tradition?  For now, I will  just leave it confused

Some of these ideas about the difficulties involved in relating to other peoples as a Jew are seen in the book of Jonah. Gd sends Jonah to Nineveh to try to save that City because the city has been so evil it merits divine destruction. Jonah runs away from these instructions. He goes AWOL. Gd threatens the destruction of a party of innocent people who are accompanying and think they are helping Jonah. A great storm threatens to destroy the ship. Jonah instructs the sailors to throw him overboard. He will sacrifice himself for the Gentiles.  That successfully calms the sea. Jonah is maintained in an underwater object and comes around to promise that he will carry out the commands of Gd. Jonah goes to the  Nineveh and saves the city by rousing their repentance. Jonah is angry that Nineveh is saved. Jonah sits in a tent outside the city to see what will happen. The sun beats down on his head and God makes a tree to shade him which brings him great joy. The next day, Gd destroys the tree. The tree was a metaphor about how the world works. Jonah should have felt more Mercy for human beings and animals. 

Jonah did not want to save Nineveh. The Abarbanel  says that Jonah foresaw that Nineveh would come and attack his Nation. Rashi says that he did not want to demonstrate how easily the enemy repents in contrast to the kingdom of Israel. One way or another, Jonah's interests were primarily in Israel survival even if it was to the detriment and destruction of another great city. Gd save us from our enemies. Gd save us from the repentance of our enemies 

Tractate Chulim ends with an analysis of a famous story. There are a few times in the Torah where a reward is stated for the performance of a mitzvah. One of these is obedience to a parent which is rewarded by long life. Another, it's a commandment to shoo away a mother bird before taking her eggs or chips. That is also rewarded by long life. In the story reported at the end of Chulin, a man instructs his son to shoo away a bird and take some eggs. The son dutifully climbs a ladder, shoos away a bird, takes the eggs, falls off the ladder and dies. The Talmud asks:  where is the length of days?  What happened to the promised reward?  The text struggles with the question and comes to the conclusion that the reward occurs in the world to come. The text recognizes how unsettling this incident was and it resulted in at least one famous heretic, “The Other” ( the subject of "As A Driven Leaf").  

In these days before Yom Kippur, I want my repentance accepted.  I am willing to surrender a good deal of my rational faculty to that end. I do not know if it is enough. 

 

Rosh Hashanah: The End

 I listened to “The Doors” when I was old enough to handle their dark messages. I think that one phrase summarizes it:

 “ This is the end

My only friend

The End. “

I could see this as ridiculous and true (a feeling I have become increasingly familiar with).  The end is when it is all over. It is not my friend.  The end  can be conceived of as a friend to one who is suffering. But growing up as the son of struggling holocaust survivors raises the bar of the level of suffering that merits a friendship with the end. It was also helpful to hear that my parents considered that solution a few times in the depths of their misery and chose an alternative.  

Now we are at the end of the Jewish year. The Torah cycle comes to its concluding chapters. These are chapters of dire prophecy with a dessert of hope. The last message: Moses fails to enter the promised land. The chapter that we read next week, between Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur describes the nation abandoning their  Lord and the  hiding of Gd’s face, the removal of Divine Grace, that ensues. Of course, there is a final redemption, but only after severe degradation; enough humiliation to make the End your friend. 

I just returned from the extraordinarily long prayer service (Selichot and Shacharith) reserved for the day before Rosh Hashanah, the last day - the end- of the year. The coda to that service is Hatorath Nedarim, the annulment of vows. The annulment of vows on the eve of Yom Kippur, Kol Nidre is far better known. The Kol Nidre is brief, not detailed and the message is often primarily  conveyed  by the  music. The Hatorat Nedarim before Rosh Hashana is more detailed, more Talmudic. It delves into the various ways vows are made, which vows can and cannot be annulled, and what justifies annulment. 

This year I understand the annulment of vows on the last day of the year differently. I understand that some vows cannot be kept.  Gd may not want the vow fulfilled.  The Annulment of vow recognizes that I may have  to live (or die) with disappointment. The vow is a statement of capability, and I will overestimate that capability. I will not be able to do everything I dream of. (The annulment of vows formula specifically includes vows taken while dreaming).  I will probably not live up to the goals I imagine I could reach.  That may be a good thing. It may be another way that the end is my friend. 

The mood that is generated by the music, poetry  and liturgy of Rosh Hashanah brings the end into focus. That view is reality. The one  true prophecy that we all have:  that everything will eventually end. The end is not your friend, but viewing it is therapeutic.

 Nitzavim Vayelech

This is an emotionally moving  season.  The cooling weather and shortening days kindle the inner warmth. In the Jewish Calendar we are approaching the days of awe, I am beginning to make the accounting of myself for the year past and thinking about how to improve the year ahead. 

Over the course of my life, the significance of this season has increased. This is the week when I commemorate my father's death. I will lead much of Shabbath service and chant the haftarah of this parsha. 

My eldest grandson was born in this week. When he is bar mitzvah, he will chant the same haftarah. Some element of my father's spirit will continue through him. 

This week we have a double parsha. The first, Nitzavim, sets a scene 

אַתֶּ֨ם נִצָּבִ֤ים הַיּוֹם֙ כֻּלְּכֶ֔ם לִפְנֵ֖י יְ

You stand this day, all of you, before the ETERNAL your Gd

רָאשֵׁיכֶ֣ם שִׁבְטֵיכֶ֗ם זִקְנֵיכֶם֙ וְשֹׁ֣טְרֵיכֶ֔ם כֹּ֖ל אִ֥ישׁ יִשְׂרָאֵֽל׃

your tribal heads, your elders, and your officials—the entire body of Israel,

טַפְּכֶ֣ם נְשֵׁיכֶ֔ם וְגֵ֣רְךָ֔ אֲשֶׁ֖ר בְּקֶ֣רֶב מַחֲנֶ֑יךָ מֵחֹטֵ֣ב עֵצֶ֔יךָ עַ֖ד שֹׁאֵ֥ב מֵימֶֽיךָ׃ 

your children, your wives, and the stranger within your camp, from woodchopper to waterdrawer.

The theme of intergenerational transmission is immediately stated. It is an element of the inclusive nature of the covenant.  The covenant extends to 

וְאֵ֨ת אֲשֶׁ֥ר אֵינֶ֛נּוּ פֹּ֖ה עִמָּ֥נוּ הַיּֽוֹם׃

and with those who are not with us here this day.

It extends to those yet to be born. (Perhaps it also extends to those not yet ready to hear it.) It extends to my parents, to me, to my children, grandchildren and beyond. 

This is the all inclusive assembly.  Every stratum of society, from the elite to the lowliest are nitzavim, standing. The work of  woodchoppers and water drawer is  given greater definition in the Book of Joshua (Chapter 9).  The Gibeonites, a Canaanite tribe that joined the Israelites under false pretenses, are relegated to these jobs. This verse reminds me of my parents' struggles to find work as immigrants to the U.S.  It reminds me of how this covenant conferred dignity on my father when he plucked chickens  for tips.

The noun that corresponds to nitzavim is netziv, a word that means pillar. Nitzavim implies the constancy of a supporting column.  When the structure is destroyed, often remnants of the columns remain. The ruins are venerated, but they support no thing; they support the imagination; perhaps they support the sky. For me, at least some of the structure remains. 

The second parsha , the third from the last parsha of the Torah, is Vayelech. The chiastic (closed loop) structure of the Torah is revealed. The third parsha from the beginning of the Torah is Lech Lecha. The root for both words, lech, go, is the same. Lech Lecha tells of Abraham's adventure as he sets out into an unknown land  and his obedience to Gd which wins the promise from Gd that the land will someday be the home of his descendants. Vayelech deals with Moshe's legacy  of laws and literature. Moses brings the descendants of Abraham to the edge of the promised land, but Moses is specifically denied entry. Moses generated a legacy that is independent of geography; Moses generated a legacy that could survive exile and disappointment. 

 This week, I recite the haftarah in honor of the  anniversary of my father's Death. It is the haftarah reserved  for my gandson's Bar Mitzvah.  The haftarah contains verses that remind me of my father's story:

מִי־זֶ֣ה ׀ בָּ֣א מֵאֱד֗וֹם חֲמ֤וּץ בְּגָדִים֙ מִבׇּצְרָ֔ה

Who is this coming from Edom,

In crimsoned garments from Bozrah—

The verse conveys surprise that  someone is  coming from Edom, the land of Esau and his garments are חֲמ֤וּץ , chamutz. .  This is the only place in tanach that  חֲמ֤וּץ  appears (hapax legomenon), and it is translated as red.  Presumably the word is related to חָמֵץ,  leavened, a condition we might describe by the derogatory "ripe. The implication is that the clothes evidence a harrowing experience.  This person that we are wondering about  has told us nothing.  It was not necessary. We know something about him just from his appearance.  

מַדּ֥וּעַ אָדֹ֖ם לִלְבוּשֶׁ֑ךָ וּבְגָדֶ֖יךָ כְּדֹרֵ֥ךְ בְּגַֽת׃

Why is Your clothing so red,

Your garments like those of someone who treads grapes?

We know that the garments are not red from trampling grapes.  They are red from blood.  But do I  want to confront the story of this blood? The  source of the blood is ambiguous.  Is it  even blood (do I believe the story) ?  Is it  the enemy's blood? Is it the blood of brothers? A mixture?  What horrors and moral compromises were necessary to survive Treblinka and the holocaust. 

Over the years, I learned that my father was a pillar of  righteousness.

My father worked in the laundry at Treblinka. He was working for the Nazis (Edom). He was washing the (chamutz, filthy) clothes.  Presumably most of the clothes were from people who had been sent to the gas chambers. These stolen  clothes had to be washed before they were sent back to Germany. It was a relatively benign job.

One day his capo (his Jewish supervisor) saw that his relatives were on the transport. Unless the capo found jobs for them they would be sent to death. The capo told my father that my father's service in the laundry was no longer needed and he would be replaced by the capo's relatives. That meant that my father would go to the gas chamber. My father took a board and hit the capo over the head making him bleed. This was clearly a capital offense.

The German officer who was supervising the area said that my father would be burned alive on the board that he used to hit the capo. The other laundry workers came to my father's defense. They explained the story to the German officer. The German officer took out his gun and gave it to my father to shoot the capo. My father refused! The officer shot the capo and my father continued to work on the laundry until the uprising.

What is this blood? Whose blood?