Bamidbar: do I count?

This weeks parsha is called Bamidbar because it is introduced with the statement that Gd spoke to Moshe at  a post Sinai event, in the dessert. In the desert you can remember your name 

The King James committee calls the book Numbers.  It is called Numbers, in part, because it begins with numbers, enumerations of the tribes leading to a sum  of the military aged men in Israel.  This is probably a military tactic to frighten enemies. These numbers annonymize the people. You can not tell one from the other. All you need to know is that they are a big army.

The Talmud refers to this, the fourth book of Moses, as Sefer Pikudim. One could, like they King  James committee,  translate that as numbers, but pikudim carries a sense of individual assignment.

The Ramban  points this out .עניין "פקידה" זיכרון והשגחה על דבר,י,  The term PKD implies rememberance and attention to a matter   PKD conveys  a relationship between an individual and an obligation.  It is the antithesis of a statistical  ( insurance) truth, something that happens because the aggregate number  is large enough.  Sefer Pikudim  is a story, Numbers is a statistic. Numbers are the tattoos of Aushwitz. 

We have an expression: "Does it count?" : Is it  to be part of the record?, Will it make a mark in history?
The parsha brings me to that question for myself.  When I am gone, did I count?

The parsha tells us that everyone counts, everyone has a special place in her family and in his work for the community. 

Do I count?

Oh, I want to be in that number